I am not typically one to go for trends. But “Transformation Tuesday” felt important to me today.
I used to hardly have ANY pictures of myself. No offense to my fella, but he wasn’t (isn’t) one to always take pictures of me with the boys. Once in awhile I would get a picture, but for the most part I didn’t ask, and I didn’t encourage, because I was ashamed.
I thought it was physical. I thought it was because of the 110 pounds I had gained from having two babies. From the maternity pants I continued to wear far beyond my post partum days. From the double chin I felt I had in any and every picture taken of me.
I was ashamed of me. The inner me and the outer me. I didn’t see myself as of any value, any importance. So I didn’t try. I didn’t try to be healthy. I didn’t try to see “Me” for who God created me to be. I focused on giving all my energy to others, helping and serving my students and my family.. I would hide behind the camera, snapping memories of my babies and fella together. It’s always easier to see other people as more important than yourself. .BUT.
*disclaimer* God calls us to love others as we love ourselves (Check out Mark 12:31)
Today I take a LOT of pictures, and truthfully, a LOT of selfies. Here’s why.
I’ve invested (for the past 13 months), and will continue to invest in me. In knowing that I am worthy. It is OK to take pictures of me goofing off with my boys, maybe even pictures pointing out my goofy personality, or showing my progress in taking care of my body.
Some might see it as vain, and you are welcome to that opinion. But my “selfies” demonstrate so much more than the physical change. They reflect letting go of who I am NOT, and in embracing who I am. Quirks and all. They are memories I am making in a moment, with my family and in my own personal journey of respecting and LOVING this one life I have.
It wont be about 6 pack abs (although I’m not going to complain if they ever make an appearance ;)), It isn’t about getting back to my senior high school physique. My body had 2 bowling ball baby boys via C-section. Did I mention I had gained a total of 110 pounds?!
My body is uniquely and beautifully mine. It tells stories of change, growth, and strength. I’m frickin’ proud of it.
Ps. You should be proud of you too.
Friends, can we stop worrying about what others think of us and start thinking of how we SEE ourselves?
Can we stop judging ourselves to unrealistic expectations and embrace who we are, how we can learn, and where we can grow?
So…here is my Transformation Tuesday.
Physical. Mental. Relational.
It’s a beautiful thing. If you haven’t experienced it, take a step. I’ll be here to cheer you on!
Love and Hugs dear friends.