I don’t like to spend money, and if I do, I would rather buy things for others than myself. I can struggle with being kind to myself. I don’t feel deserving of nice or special things.
Today I bought a pair of running shoes. Real running shoes. Not clearance from a generic store, but ones with cushion and support….This is huge for me.
It’s me saying I am working hard, this is one of my hobbies, I need to take care of my body, I deserve a good pair of shoes.
How many times do we feel unworthy? Not good enough? Not worth it? I can tell you easily, I have had one of those thoughts in my head dozens of times a week (sometimes a day)! … everyday can be a struggle sometimes.
Florence and the Machine has a song called Shake it out… one of the lyrics that’s been running through my head the past few days is:
“And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off…..”
I’ve let that mean little shit control way too much of my mindset… so today, I’m dancing (or running 😊) with the devil off my back.
If you struggle with realizing who you are, that you are deserving and worthy… my hope is you too can shake him off and do something to love yourself.